listening to // journey to the past :: aaliyah
feeling //

Funny how I can't seem the describe my feelings lately. Or is it because I can't be bothered to go find out more about myself? Ah. . . Whatever. So, yesterday we all headed down to RGS to watch the play. The jokes were okay, I laughed. But overall it wasn't that great. Glad I could understand it though. I was almost falling asleep but I couldn't because the light was above me. Damn. Was sms-ing Xun so I was pretty much awake. Thanks Cuperman! =D And SHUmei was looking at guys. Lolol. She asked me whether I knew that CHS guy in white. Didn't get to see who it was because the big, hideous Ryann Seng was blocking my view. That swine. If I was given the chance I'd use any way to get rid of him. But anyway, SHUmei. . . Sorry I can't get his number. Finally got to see Tang yesterday. And he was the only I could remember out of the whole group of CHS people there. I couldn't even remember the so-called shuai ge Jierong. =S Oh wells. Had to trouble him to pass stuff to Xun and Sua Ning. Thanks again!

Hope FMSS drama can do a much better job. (>.<) Well, intensive rehearsals for SLG's starting. I'm gonna be so drained of my free time and my social circle will just collaspe and I will turn into a no lifer. I will eat, sleep, breathe, think SLG - or i have to rather. Whee. Mmmz, am off to go shopping again. Yaysteralize! (-_-)*

[edit]listening to // That Girl :: Lindsay Lohan
feeling // Jaded

Hell, I am feeling effin' jaded. My dad has been a pain in the ar*e lately. He's on his nagging and what nots again. I've been staying up late rushing all my homework so my holidays are free to plan drama farewell and settle The Silly Little Girl and The Funny Old Tree (SLGFOT). Well, I msn too. But as it goes deeper into the night, people disappear and then when it's in the dead of the night - i.am.alone. And I kinda like that. All I see are the blocks opposite with little spots of lights and I am alone. And my block overlooks some expressway, can't remember which one. CTE or something. The road makes me think sometimes. What awaits me in life? Long and arduous? Or is it gonna be filled with wisdom and experience that would last me a whole life long? I don't know. Hope it rains. I like it when drops of water splash against my window pane and huge grey clouds loom overhead. Because of all the water, I see distorted images of the surroundings. Depressing? I don't think so. In fact, I feel more at ease. Like I'm blocked from the vast world outside. Makes life a whole lot easier. It makes life surreal. Then the rain stops, obviously there's bound to me sh*t. But usually people only see the perky side of me. It's tiring to be perky all the time. People don't see that. Well, I am such a good actress. I should be presented with an Oscar and given some recognition. All the work load is putting me on a short fuse. Sorry to all those that I have snapped at. =/ .

Was just talking to Sua Ning about it and he left me some words. . . Which I thought was pretty meaningful. "When it's over, you'll come out a better person. Just take care of yourself first. And remember this important rule: Whatever mistakes you make, no one will remember because you are young. Haha, so dare to do what you want, and nothing will end when you fall. The only mistakes that will cripple you for life is like er. . . you get pregnant or paralysed or something. If not, it's pretty much okay if you pull through." Yeah I will. I've got my life planned out, and I'm not gonna dash my hopes and destroy my dreams by getting pregnant or break any bones. That's gonna be such a bummer. Lolol.[/edit`11.5opm]

12:41 AM
Saturday, May 29, 2004